Windtalker

Another week of work. I won't bore you with the details, because there's really nothing to mention. The days drag by and I feel myself infinite times more lonely than the previous day. Derek and I "small talk" on occasion, but he is usually busy with work or dating or various other things. I have met a few people at work who are friendly enough, but I don't know that I can trust them with too much information, so forming a relationship proves to be very difficult. I will try and write more often, but I would love to have a response, so it doesn't feel like I'm just talking into the wind.

Occupied

I realize I haven't been on in quite a while, Derek helped me find some employment and it has kept me very occupied though things are slowing quite a bit now. I've also taken interest in checking out the local "Occupy" group. I think it is a step in the right direction for the most part, but I also think that some of the expectations of the group by some members are unrealistic. I hope that the level headed members with good intentions and ideas prosper and I hope they collaborate with like-minded individuals from other cities and states in order to make positive transitions more efficiently. I'm not yet sure that I agree with the group as a whole, as I'm not educated in all of the causes they stand for. I guess I'll just have to wait and see where it goes.

My job is mundane,but I'm happy to have it. I work third shift of course and I get paid "under the table". I got paid today and I offered to pay Derek rent for letting me stay at his place, but he refused. He told me he wouldn't accept payment until I was back on my feet. I bought some non perishables and delivered them to those camped out at the "Occupy" site, then I purchased a prepay Visa debit card so I could rent movies without alerting authorities to my location. I rented a few movies including one
called "Nosferatu". I think it was made in the 1930's. It's about Vampires. I have a natural interest of course, but I find most Vampire movies cheesy and good to view when I'm in the mood for a comedy. I also picked up a couple of packs of bacon for myself, so the plan is to spend my night munching and watching night crawlers like myself. LOL

There is now a large group of private investigators who are trying to track down my family. No word yet and leads are difficult to come by to say the least. I think my people may all be constantly moving to avoid detection. I dream of the day we are reunited.

So does anyone out there have an opinion of the "Occupy" groups? If you're reading this, write in and let me know.

chemistry

For Derek to have approached me with such a strong introduction, he has proven to be much less talkative than anticipated. I'm sure he's intelligent, but he hides behind a very commercial and fake personality. He hasn't discussed why and I don't push for answers. I feel I will find them in due time. The situation does however leave me evermore wishing for someone to engage me in real conversation or at least some kind of favorable connection.

As a kind gesture, Derek lined me up with a blind date this past Saturday in the late evening. I told him that it was still too soon for me to consider taking on a romantic partner, but he insisted. He's been the greatest help that I could have hoped for thus far, so I decided I would oblige, if out of nothing more than gratitude.

Her name is Krista and she's a third year med student in a predominant ivy league college in one of the neighboring towns. She's very intelligent, witty and shy, with a somewhat awkward sense of humor. Dinner went well enough and she had a very unique perception of some chemistry related concepts that we had both found to be interesting in our schooling. As we ended our dinner and hopped a cab to a nearby theater, the mood got a little cozier and like I said before, my pheromones can have very different effects on people, particularly of the opposite sex.

Most of the time women that behave very conservative, end of giggling like young school girls and tripping over their words, you know very insecure and childlike. I wasn't expecting much different from Krista, but as we sat side by side in the back seat of the cab, I continued my argument on the chemistry based concepts and Krista clammed up in a shell of aloofness. She had made about a foot and a half of space between us by the time we approached the cinema and she sat a seat apart from me for the movie. We shared a cab home and as it was approaching her apartment I asked if I'd said something wrong. She quickly assured me that it was no wrong doing on my part and that she simply just felt very awkward in my presence.

I thanked her for her honesty and told her that she could always call me if she wanted to discuss compound chemicals and the like. I opened the door for her when the cab approached her apartment and gave her what probably seemed like a brotherly kiss on the forehead and again thanked her for a wonderful evening. That was a great exaggeration of course, but there was no reason to be rude. She said she'd give me a call sometime, but I seriously doubt that she will. I don't mind as I don't think I'm ready to start another relationship just yet...I'm not sure I ever will be.